Day 359: One Year Ago Today

From: The (Future) Mom
Sent:Fri 6/13/08 10:59 PM
To: (My Future Aunt) Karen (grrhouston@hotmail.com)

Karen,

Thank you for your reply to my email. I tried calling you earlier at your
work number, but then got busy with the yard crew and a handyman that's
going to be reworking the attic vents in my soffits. It feels too late now
to interrupt your Friday evening!

Please feel free to call me any time over the weekend, at your
convenience... or simply reply to this email if you'd rather. I don't want
to impose on your weekend!

Luke:

I have promised myself not to fall in love with an older golden, but the
look in his eyes just captivates me. What kind of home is he needing? How
likely is it that he will find it? I can't bear to think of his last nine
months. He's the same age as the precious baby girl that I just lost...
and I know how much life she packed into every single month of hers.
Someone needs to help him make up for lost time, and in my mind, I'm not
altogether certain it isn't me. :-) I'm still hesitant, though, just
because of his age and my grief factor.

Doug:

Is that precious puppy still available? Is he a full golden? Can you tell
me more about his build, coloring and behavior... how you think he might
grow up? He sounds like a fun, funny character with a strong
personality... my favorite kind!

With each of these, too, there's the question of how they would get along
with another golden adoptee, since my goal is to adopt two... in time.

And as a general question, when I decide I'm ready to meet one of the
dogs, how do I arrange it?

Karen, this process is really difficult for me. It's still hard to imagine
sharing my life with someone other than my Comet... and it's equally hard
imagining not sharing it with a golden.

And then when I had fallen SO in love with Eddie, looking at him on the
website numerous times a day for weeks... I could even imagine his head on
my shoulder on our way home together! I'm afraid it takes me so long to
find peace with my emotions and reach a decision... I may never have the
opportunity to adopt. Hopefully in time, though, everything will work out
as it is intended, and I'll be spending my Friday nights in good golden
company!.

Thank you so much for putting up with me!

Amanda